First thoughts on humility

I have been meaning to write about humility for over a year now, but I have found it difficult to get started. This is a start. 

One of the things that has held me back is knowing whatever I write will not be comprehensive. It will not be a complete summary of what can be learned of humility, and it probably will not even be a complete summary of what I know of humility. 

That is ok. Comprehensiveness is not as important as usefulness. Even one good idea is worth sharing. I think humility is even part of what encourages me to share incomplete ideas, while pride or fear would have me wait until I have figured every last thing out.

The gift of humility from God is probably the most meaningful experience I have ever had with something immaterial. I can see conceptually that humility can lead to peace and contentment because when you "accept God's estimation" of yourself (a phrase A.W. Tozer uses) you don't have to spend so much time and energy trying to impress others or pretending to be something you are not. 

But the peace and contentment I have experienced are not conceptual. They feel real. I want more of them in the same way that I might want more of some delicious kind of food that I had just tried for the first time. It is so real that it makes me wonder––more than I ever have--how something so real could come from something immaterial. 

I would even go so far as to say that it feels somehow more real, deeper, and transcendent of other peace, joy, and contentment I have felt before, and also their opposites. It feels deeper in two senses.

First, it is more full of vivacity and power. If I could pick between the joy of humility and the joy of, say, going skiing, or playing the piano, or eating a delicious meal, I can honestly say that I would prefer the joy of humility, and not on any principle other than pure experience. I liked it better. 

The second way humility was deeper was that it seemed to be more permanent and much less tied to my circumstances. Whatever kind of fear haunts us about the things we love because we know they can be taken away, that fear was not there. It felt safe. 

That is the beginning of my thoughts on humility, and they are rather incomplete, but that is ok. It should give you an idea of why I am intrigued by humility, why I want to tell other people about it, why I want my friends to experience it, and why I continue to seek it out from God.